Welcome To My Crazy Life!

The dark has given way to light, but the fog has not lifted and can be heavier at some moments while lighter at other moments.  I have had a fairly good morning, in spite of not going to sleep until after 1:00 A.M.  No fights or meltdowns with the grands, spent a good while talking to my oldest son...but now as I finish looking at everything I need to on the computer, I feel the fog rolling in, obscuring the sun, weighing me down and causing me to feel like bursting into tears.  Even this morning, for the first time in a long while, I burst into tears while having a conversation...no rhyme or reason, just did.  I don't like the randomness of depression any more than I like being buried in the blackness.  It can be so frustrating some days.  I even had two awesome devotions this morning and the scriptures were exactly what I needed.  Even though I feel sad, I still feel peace and joy...my life can be such an oxymoron even in the midst of all the insanity...I mean...how can you be sad and happy at the same moment?  I can't explain it...I just know that some days, that is how I feel.  So...welcome to my crazy life...welcome to the nut house!