After my last post, my son came home from running his errand and let me know that he had quit his job and that I could go home whenever I was ready. I spent that last day with him and the grands and enjoyed every moment with them, knowing that in spite of my severe homesickness, I was going to really miss them. I left the next morning and made the long drive home to surprise my husband. It is amazing how quickly the fog can disappear.
God's timing is absolutely perfect. A week after arriving to help with the kids, I had a major allergy attack that turned into a sinus infection, which moved into my lungs and caused my asthma to pitch a hissy fit. Didn't realize how sick I was until the night I got home. I have been in bed for the most part of the last week. I wouldn't have been able to take care of the kids had I still been at their house. Even though I do miss them terribly, I am very happy to be home. The depression hasn't been so heavy this week and the joy/peace that I feel is a welcome respite to everything that has been happening over the last two months.
Tomorrow I will have my first counseling session in almost a month. Not even sure what I will need to talk about, but I am ready to get to work and figure myself out so that I can truly be me and not the person that EVERYONE thinks I should be...I must be the girl that God created and must follow His directions wholly. What He knows of me is far more important than what anyone thinks of me.
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