In spite of the peace and joy that I have been feeling, it was brought home to me this evening that I still have a need to be needed and it hurts when I am no longer needed. Now...that isn't to make anyone feel bad...it is just the reality in my life. I have always equated love with respect and being needed and when either of those things are absent, then I get depressed. For years, I didn't realize that was what the problem was...now I know. So...this is the issue that I need to work out in my own life...I need to figure out how to recognize that just because those in my life don't need me, that I am still loved...it isn't a bad thing to not be needed, but it is a strain on my God-given personality...it is a weakness that I need to work on.
So...I have shed a few crocodile tears, dried them and now it is time to move on. I cannot continue to grieve over what was, I must live in the what is and in doing so, I must find my joy, my peace, my contentment and thrive as God works in my life!
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