I'm Surviving!

Barely...keeping my head above water.  I am so very tired.  I love my grands dearly...love spending time with them, playing with them, loving and cuddling with them...but the sad truth is that I've raised my sons and I am TIRED!  Too tired to raise my grands now.  The depression saps me of my energy and ability to recharge as quickly as I used to.  I am having to realize that I cannot do it ALL any more...I am not Superwoman!  I retired my cape, so why am I still trying to put it back on?!  I would say that I need my head examined, but since that is already being done...although, two weeks without a session and I am feeling it.  I cannot handle being away from my home or my husband for a month doing basically nothing.  I cannot handle being responsible for two very active children for a month, even if it is for a few hours in the evening and the weekends...so to try to do it 24/7, at my home without a real break for a month is going to be totally out of the question.  I hate not being able to be there for my children and grands...but I just do not have it in me...I just do not have the strength.  So like I said...I'm surviving...BARELY!