Just about the time I think I am on an even playing field...I fall off the cliff. You would think that I would learn better by now...but not so. Last week, I thought that I was getting oh so good at flipping those awful, pitiful moods that I was falling into...HA! This week...I've barely been able to get out of bed. I've been blah all week until today and I've been a puddle of tears. I'm just sad. My therapist says that I am exhausted physically and emotionally and he is probably right, so that doesn't help...but because of how I am feeling, I am second guessing myself on so many things. This means that when I am supposed to be sleeping, my brain is running at warp speed, I am clinching my jaws and grinding my teeth, which causes the muscles in my neck and back to seize up, which means that I don't sleep well, if at all and that means MIGRAINES! It is a snowball effect and I hate, REALLY HATE the end result.
Yes, I still see a light at the end of the tunnel. I do see an end to all of this. I know that this too shall pass...but can it be done YESTERDAY? Patience is NOT my strongest virtue and I truly am trying to allow patience to have her perfect work in me...but I am finding it extremely difficult to do today.
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