Holidays? No Thanks!!!!

Since my husband retired from the military, I have come to HATE holidays.  Why?  Because it is a reminder that we no longer have friends.   In the military, everyone bands together to make sure that no one spends a holiday alone...not so in the civilian community.  Co-workers and those you go to church with don't even think about checking to see if you are going to be alone...especially, if they are from that area or have been there for a long time or have family close by.  Most people assume that because we grew up in this state, that we ought to have plans made...but we live several hours away from our families and can't just up and go spend holidays with them.  I just get depressed sitting in the house, doing nothing.  It makes me sad that we don't have any friends to do things with...I really REALLY hate being alone.  Even my long time best friend/sister wants nothing to do with me...so maybe I am totally worthless..  I haven't felt like this in quite a while.  I don't like it.